Hidden Emotions

I am in the midst of my first trimester of pregnancy and I get teary eyed when something sad or great is shown on television. The other day I got teary eyed while watching a tv program, I asked myself "what are you upset about" and I tried to dry up the tears. Once I cleared up my teary eyes, I thought about all the times that we hide our true emotions from ourselves and others because we are ashamed or think we are doing something wrong. We have truly become immune to rejoicing in tears with the small and big things in life whether they are sad or happy. Why do we feel the necessity to hide our true emotions? Why do we let our emotions run our lives and keep us from crying when happy things happen. I think we have trained ourselves to only cry when something really sad happens but what about all the other times? I remember as a child being told how to control my emotions, being told when it was okay to cry, being told when it was not okay to cry and I remember feeling shame if I cried when I wasn't supposed to. Although I am only watching television (and no, I am not crying at soap operas-he, he) but I do cry/get teary eyed when there are shows about real things that happen to real people and I think about all of the times that I have had friends who needed someone to cry with them but I protected my emotions so I wouldn't cry with them or I wouldn't embarrass them. It is amazing how I feel after I have had a great cry and life seems a little bit better. When was the last time you cried? Have you ever cried from being joyful? I am looking forward to motherhood but I am amazed at what I am learning about myself emotionally. PS I am not sure that my husband is enjoying me crying at tv shows but maybe he can learn a little bit more about me. :)