The Fight for Friendships

Joy, craziness, busyness, and excitement fill my life but with one emotion thrown in that I never imagined would be present as well: sadness. An engagement time should be filled with the craziness of planning but excitment and joy. However, my engagement has a sense of sadness mixed in. Almost everyone has been happy and excited for me and Jamie but for some strange reason I have a few people who are not overly thrilled and they have made it perfectly known. I feel as though I am losing some friends whom I call my "second family" and I have a couple of friends who are contemplating whether or not our friendship can continue. I never imagined that such a happy time would cause friendships to possibly disappear. The friendships I may lose are special to me and it is so painful to think about what will come to be. Shocking to many but I am actually at a loss for words and it is hard to express the hurt that is present in my heart. I am happy and blessed in my life but I wonder what God is doing in my life with the friendships that are at a risk of being lost. I do not give up easily so I will fight for the friendships until the fight is no longer left in me.