Love Is Not a Fight

Love Is Not A Fight
By: Warren Barfield

Love is not a place
To come and go as we please
It's a house we answer in
Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you
Throw away the key
We'll work it out together
Let it bring us to our knees

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word
That they can fall into
But when they're falling out
Keeping that word is hard to do

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us
If we'll only call
He will ask nothing from us
But demand we give our all

Chorus:
Love is a shelter in a raging storm
Love is peace in the middle of a war
And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door
No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you
Would you fight for me?
It's worth fighting for

4 Months of Marriage

The hubby and I have been married almost 4 months and it is still an everyday learning experience. I don't think we have had a calm month so far but it has been fun. Here are a few of the highlights from our 4 months:


Weekend Florida Beach Trip

Fighting over the covers and stealing pillows even though the hubby has his own pillows but for some reason he needs three pillows at night

Sleep study followed by finding out that the hubby has to get a CPAP machine

Punching the hubby in the ribs in my sleep telling him "that's a great deal" (I guess I was dreaming about shopping)

Getting punched in the face in the middle of the night as the hubby was dreaming of spiders because I had messed with him before going to bed about spiders

Deep teeth cleaning for the hubby (I think he is falling apart at his age)

New king size mattress

Great very late night talks (3-4 hours of sleep is becoming the norm for me)

New food/cooking experiences

Traveling to the in-laws for Easter

Finishing grad school for the semester

Game nights

First snow together

Learning to balance time at work, time for school and time for marriage

Missing old friends who think that because we are married, we don't go out (we still like to do things for all of our friends who are reading this)

Exposure to mystery movies (for me)

Softball games at all hours of the night

Lots of unexpected expenses

Losing my grandmother

The hubby took a day off of work to help my office move furniture

Forgetting to put the trash out before the garbage men come

Disagreements over the temperature of the house (yes, I can be cold in 80 degree weather)

Lots and lots and lots and lots of laundry

The phrase "do you love me" can be used as an apology, affirmation, a question and a confirmation

Trying to figure out where to put all of the wedding gifts all while trying to finish writing wedding thank you notes

A 6 hour birthday party for a friend who is throwing his own party

Random holidays at work (for Jamie) are unfair..I mean really..who gets Confederate Memorial Day off (oh yeah...state employees)

Lots of fun messing with the hubby on the phone while pretending to be one of his claimants at work (I have fooled him a few times)

The rabbit does eat the bills (inside joke about a evil looking stuffed rabbit on our mantel who holds the bills until we pay them)

Relay for Life

Here are a few pics from our recent adventures:

The Real Me

I hide my heart and my true feelings at times..I sometimes cry alone other times with those who love me surrounding me...I hide the heartache I have...I work until I am ready to collapse with grief and tiredness...I stay busy to keep from having to stop and really listen...I get tired of life being so hard...I have joy in life...I smile and laugh...

I may hide at times but there is one person who knows me from head to toe and inside out...the one and only God. He knows "The Real Me". I love this song by Natalie Grant because it describes life at times.


The Real Me by Natalie Grant

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

[Chorus:]
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me
Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Oh,Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me